First let me start by saying, Happy New Year 2019! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and are ready to embrace a fresh start.
So sorry I have not been active for the last month. As you can imagine, the holiday time is very busy, it also doesn’t help that I work at an aquarium now that has had over 5000 guest a day. Now that New Years is over. I am praying that I will be able to finally get back on schedule.
Just know that Comic-Comic and Denatured will be making their returns shortly. I just need one more week to catch up and they will begin updating regularly again.
I have been pondering where I want to go moving forward in 2019, and after much thought and consideration, I have decided to stop accepting commissions.
Now some of you might be disappointed to hear that, while others will say “Wait, commissions? I didn’t even know you offered those.”
Yes I have always been open for commissions until this point, I realize I didn’t do a very good job at advertising them. That’s on me, and I aplogize if this is upsets you. Just know that I did not reach this desccision lightly. I love to make art for other people and it pains me to have to do this, I just want you to know why I’m doing this and why that’s a good thing.
After much consideration and thought, I’ve decided to put a hold on commissions for the following reasons.
I don’t have the time.
This is probably the biggest reason I reached this conclusion, but it’s not the only one. I just don’t have the time to do them on top of my other projects which I want to see grow. I am using every bit of energy throughout the day and it just doesn’t seem feasible without putting those projects on hold to finish art for other people.
2. I don’t make money off them.
So putting them on hold doesn’t really impact me finacially simply because I barely ever get commissions to begin with. I might get one every one to four months. Which is fine, but it’s not what I hoped it would be.
3. My talent is not where I want it to be.
Let’s face it, I want to keep improving at my art and developing my talent, but I just don’t feel like I’ve reached a point where I can honestly say I feel like a professional. It takes time to develop a skill, I’m miles and miles ahead of where I was a year ago, and I hope to continue that streak, but at this moment in time, I feel as if the majority of people that see my stuff online just seem to overlook it on their way to see porn. It’s upsetting to say the least. A year from now I want to see where I’m at and to see if the demand for commissions grow. It’s obvious to me that people don’t value my work enough to desire a commission. That is why I want to take the time to develop my skills into something more worthy of being desired.
4. I never seem to put the proper value on my prices
When I first started I barely put any value on my art. I charged $5.00 for a single commission. It was because I felt that at the time that was all it was worth. As I grew, I began to raise the prices. Unfortunately I’ve learned that when you undervalue yourself early on, you have a really hard time placing a correct value later. I most of the time feel as if my work is overpriced, but at the same time I get friends and family saying that it’s way undervalued for the quality, time, and effort I put into it. I don’t know which one is right. The only way I can fix this is by improving to the point where I personally feel that my art is worth a certain amount. Which brings me to my next point.
5. I feel like I let people down far too often.
Almost every time I do a commission I feel as if though I don’t put my whole heart into it. I often get the sense that the people who commission me are let down by what I give them. When I present an image and they give me a quick one sentence response, I immediately think, “Shit they hate it.” I realize a lot of that is in my head, but this again ties in with my desire to give you high quality work.
6. No desire to make certain things.
I just have a hard time getting motivated to make art that I feel like doesn’t represent the kind of image I want to do. I made a mistake early on by taking commissions for transformation art. While I personally love making TF art, there is a problem when it comes to doing commissions for it. The issue is that I run into many many people that want me to draw their personal fetish that I might not agree with or that I just don’t find interesting. It doesn’t help motivate me to make it. This doesn’t mean I wont make my own TF art, cause I will. It just means that I don’t want to be known for making specific types of things. I want a more professional SFW atmosphere that I can share with people
So what does this mean? Will you never take commissions again?
No, I want to eventually go back to taking commissions. I just want to make sure that when I do, it is on better terms. So for now, I won’t be taking commissions until I have the met the following criteria.
I find more free time
I am able to afford a better set up and better tools.
I feel that I’ve improved enough.
The is a demand for commissions from me increases.
So you need to know the reason why this is a good thing. This will give me much more free time to work on and grow Denatured, Comic-Comic, as well as a variety of other projects that I will get into later.
So I hope this didn’t put a bummer on your New Year. Again, understand that this is going to benefit my development and growth and that I will eventually go back to taking commissions.
I hope your 2019 is an awesome one.
Light Lux Collie